Alex finally was able to get out of the common room, after his conversations with Ernie and Josh. He went up the studio and was about to open the door when he decided against it, not wanting to startle you, and knocked.

"Come in." he calls quietly, a tinge of apprehension in his voice. He's curled up on the sofa, his eyes are very red and he looks completely exhausted.

Alex opens the door quietly and steps in, closing and locking it behind him. He sees you on the couch and is beside you a moment later, kneeling down on his haunches, looking worried and frightened and angry at the same time. "Dean? What happened?

"Nothing....I just...well, I told Seamus." he sniffles and rubs at his eyes gently.

Alex exhales, the anger and fright fading from his eyes but the worry increasing. He reaches out and runs his fingers slightly thru your hair. "Oh, ba... Dean. Are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm okay...just mentally exhausted." he smiles softly.

Alex leans over and kisses your forehead, then he sighs. "That makes two of us, then."

"Lay with me?" he scoots over to make room for you next to him.

"Mm.. that sounds like a great idea." He kicks off his shoes and shrugs out of his robe, laying down in his tee shirt and jeans.

Dean wraps his arms around you and buries his face in your chest. "I missed you today."

Alex sighs and wraps his arms around you as well, pulling you into him. "I missed you too, love." He mutters it against your head in a whisper.

"It was a rotten day." he sighs and relaxes against you. "How was yours?"

He sighs. "Trying.... I talked to Ern and Josh..."

"I'm so sorry, hun. Sounds like we both had 'the day from hell'."

Alex smiles softly. "Mmm.. it was hard, but... I told them both about Andrew. It's good to be talking about it finally, really."

"I'm glad you're making progress, love." he smiles up at you, genuinely.

Alex shrugs. "I wouldn't call it progress. Ernie is going home with me in the summer with the intent of ripping him apart..." he smirks, then looks at you gently. "But if I am progressing, it's all due to you." He runs the back of his knuckles along your cheek. "Thank you."

"I haven't done anything, hun." he snuggles up against you.

"Don't say that, baby." He lets the endearment slip before he realizes and pauses, waiting for your reaction.

Dean smiles and pulls you closer to him. "You're such an angel, you know that?"

Alex shakes his head slightly. "No I'm not." He laughs. But realizes that you didn't say anything about his slip, and he pulls you closer. "You just bring out the best in me, baby."

"You're an angel as far as I'm concerned." he kisses your nose quickly and nuzzles against your neck.

"Heh. You're cute when you do that." He laughs and slides his hand to your side pulling you closer.

"When I do what?" he asks curiously, looking into your eyes.

"When you kiss my nose, brat." He teases, laughing and pulling you in to kiss you quickly.

"A brat am I?" he grins shyly. "You haven't even seen me anywhere near a brat yet."

Alex grins and raises an eyebrow, feeling more comfortable tonight that he isn't going to hurt you or scare you off. "Oh? And what would you do if you were trying to be a brat?

"Wouldn't you like to know." he teases, pretending to ignore you.

Alex slides his hand under your shirt and to your hip, pulling you close so that you can feel him growing. "Oh, yes. I really would like to know!"

"Mmm...I think you'll just have to wait." he smiles at you slyly and grinds his hips against yours.

Alex moans as you grind against him, then pretends to be insulted and huffs. "Fine, then, don't show me!" He laughs and leans in to kiss your forehead.

Dean grins widely and pulls you to him. "You're terrible, you know that?" he teases.

"I know, completely incorrigible." He twines his legs around yours and presses against you, leaning in to kiss you harder. ''Completely"

Dean gives you a naughty grin and takes your hand in his, guiding it down to his jean-covered arse. "Need you, Alex." he whispers against your lips.

Alex starts a little and then smiles softly, kneading your arse and pulling you closer. "Dean... you're... you seem like you're feeling better..."

"I feel...decidedly better. I've had a few revelations that have improved my outlook on life." he smiles at you and gently rolls his hips into yours.

"Mmm... that's good to hear. It's nice to see you happier..." Alex runs his other hand to curl in your hair and draw you in for a harder kiss, sliding his hand into the back pocket of your jeans and pulling you close against him.

Dean returns the kiss passionately and slides a hand under the edge of your shirt, caressing the soft skin there. He throws his top leg over your waist and rolls you quickly so that you're lying on him.

"Mmm..."Alex sighs as he shifts to lie on you, sliding against you and grinding slightly as he smiles against your lips. "I think I like you like this." He chuckles.

"'Course I like it...it just...feels right."  he kisses you gently, squeezing his legs tightly around you.

Alex pushes himself up a bit, the hand at your hair tilting your head up so he can stare into your eyes for a moment. "Yeah. It does. It feels perfect." And then he leans into your kiss, almost hungrily, nibbling at your lips.

Dean crushes his lips back against yours passionately, trying to get as close to you as he can. He wraps his arms around you protectively, pulling you in even closer.

Alex beams and slides his hands under your shirt, clumsily trying to pull it off without stopping the kiss.

Dean wriggles out of the shirt, only breaking the kiss long enough to fling it across the room. He begins to tug at your shirt clumsily, caressing the skin beneath it as he slides it up.

Alex takes one hand and tugs his shift off, tossing it with yours, he takes a breath and smiles down at you.

Dean looks up at you with a naughty grin before attacking your lips passionately. He moans softly and rolls his hips upwards, his erection quite evident.

Alex giggles and kisses you back, letting his full weight press against you. His own arousal against yours. He smiles against your lips. "Dean..."

"Mmm..." he continues to kiss you, stopping only to plant small kisses across your cheeks.

Alex shakes his head slightly. "I just... you taste good." He finishes weakly, and makes up for it by biting at your lips and kissing you back passionately, pressing himself closer.

Dean groans lightly and lets his eyes flutter closed. He flicks his tongue over your lower lip, nipping an it lightly.

Alex slides down and licks at your collarbone, nipping gently, smiling against your skin. his fingers scratching down your sides.

Dean groans audibly and reaches down to twine his fingers in your hair. "Gods, Alex..."

Alex smirks, sliding his ears to your ear and nipping at the lobe. "Yes?"

"Mmm...you feel so good. Don't stop...please."  he pulls your face back to his and kisses you lightly.

Alex looks at you softly, running his hand from your side to your stomach. His voice is soft, gentle. "Is that what you want?"

"Yes...that's what I want." he sighs softly and smiles at you with longing in his eyes.

Alex smiles and slides back to your collarbone, nipping again, a bit harder. His hand on your stomach flattens and rubs a small arc, fingertips ending up just under the waist band of your jeans.

Dean holds his breath when he feels your fingers near the waist of him pants. "Oh...please...

"Please?" Alex lets the mischevious tone slip back into his voice, whispering against your chest as he moves to nip at your nipple, scraping his teeth across lightly.

Dean groans loudly, tangling his fingers in your hair. "Gods...yes...feels so good."

Alex puts his other hand to your waist, unsnapping the button of your jeans and pausing, his lips against your chest, trying to gauge your reaction.

Dean gasps and leans his head back against the arm of the sofa. He thrusts his hips up against your hand a bit, trying to encourage you.

Alex shifts, unwrapping your legs from his waist and moving to stradle you, slowing lowering the zipper and moving to push the jeans off your legs.

Dean watches you intently, lifting his hips enough to let you slide his jeans down.

Alex pulls your jeans off and drops them with the shirts on the floor, leaning back to let his eyes slide over you. He trails his fingertips up your thighs, watching your face. "Dean...I... I don't want to push you..."

"You're not, Alex." he shakes his head slightly. "You have no idea how much I want you." he looks into your eyes dreamily, a shy smile pasted on his face.

Alex smiles, then looks at your erection as he tentatively runs his fingers from your thigh to the base, and then up the length. His body tense, still worried, but feeling extremely lucky that you're letting him touch you.

Dean gasps sharply and closes his eyes. He concentrates on the intense feelings that he's having just from the simple brush of your fingers.

Alex smiles as you close your eyes, wrapping his hand around you slowly and firmly and sliding it over you.

Dean moans loudly as your hand wraps around his length;  involuntarily, he thrusts up into your hand.

Alex is motivated by your moan. He smiles and slides futher down your legs, giving himself room to move over you as he stills his hand and takes one last look at your face before gently touching his tongue to your tip.

Dean opens his eyes slowly and looks down; the sight of you kneeling between his legs makes him shiver all over.

Alex looks up at you, smiling, as he slides his tongue down your length, his eyes locked with yours.

Dean groans and reaches down to caress your face before lacing his fingers in your hair.

Alex smiles and slides his tongue back up, slowly taking your tip in his mouth, his eyes still locked with yours, tongue sliding around your head.

Dean leans his head back, making small cooing noises. He mumbles words incoherently, still touching your face with one hand.

Alex reaches one hand to the one you have in his hair and clenches your fingers, encouraging you to lead him, and begins to take more of you into his mouth, slowly bobbing and taking more of you at each downstroke.

Groaning loudly again, he tightens his grip in your hair but not forcing your head down. He thrusts up very slightly into your mouth.

Alex moans around you as your fingers tighten, the vibrations surrounding you, sliding down until you are buried in his throat he pulls back slowly, sliding down again all the way and repeating the slow withdrawal.

Dean throws his head back again, arching up into your mouth.

Alex smiles around you, pulling back as you arch up and controlling his pace, the quick downstroke and slow slow withdrawal, smiling, sneaking one hand  up your thigh to run his fingertips slightly across your balls.

Dean gasps and gently pulls you back up toward him. "Wait...wait Alex, please." he crushes his lips against yours firmly.

Alex kisses back hard, and then leans back, his eyes confused but heavy lidded with passion, holding himself up on his arms so that the coarse material of his jeans doesn't rub against you. "Baby? Wha? Did I did I do something wrong?" His words are slow, as if he has to think very hard to form them.

"No...you haven't done anything wrong at all." he pulls you down on top of him snugly. "You've done everything right. I need you, Alex."

Alex settles into you, still trying not to press into you in his jeans. He leans up and nuzzles into your neck nipping at the skin below your ear. "What do you mean, Dean?" His words gentle, soft.

"I want you to...make love to me, Alex." he feels his eyes begin to tear up, afraid of what your reaction will be, but not wanting to hide his feelings any longer.

Alex tenses and then pulls your head up for a gentle kiss that turns passionate. He breaks off, gasping for his breath. "Oh, love, are you... are you sure?"

"Positive, Alex. I've never wanted anything more in my life." a tear trickles down the side of his face.

Alex rubs the tear away with his thumb. "Why... why are you crying?" His voice is gentle, loving.

"Because..." he turns his face away, afraid to look in your eyes. "Because...I...I love you."

Alex stops breathing, stops moving, but only for a second. Then he leans in for a kiss more passionate than any you've had with him so far. He leans back, sliding his mouth to your ear. "Say that again."

Dean smiles tenatively, still unsure of himself. "I love you, Alex." he whispers in your ear softly.

Alex sighs and leans against you, forgetting his denim. He holds your head to his own tightly. "I love you too." He whispers it softly, barely audible.

Dean gives in and lets the tears roll freely down his cheeks. "You don't know how I've longed to hear you say that."

Alex smiles "yes I do." and kisses the tears from your cheeks, his fingers running against the sides of your face.

Dean pulls you tightly against him as if he's afraid you'll dissappear. He looks into your eyes intently. "I mean it too...I love you."

Alex grins at you, leaning in to press a kiss to the side of your mouth. "I mean it too. I love you." He smiles against your lips. 'Love you."

Dean kisses you back, letting the kiss grow more passionate again. "Need you, love."

Alex smiles, leaning into your kiss and pressing himself against you. He draws your hand to the snap of his jeans. "If you're sure, baby. I.. I want you" He draws in breath and shakes as he kisses you again.

Dean flicks open the snap with trembling fingers and unzips them; he reaches back up to the waistband of your trousers, pushing them down slowly. "Please, Alex...need you now."

Alex smiles against your shoulder, putting his hand over yours and helping you lower the zipper, shimmying out of his jeans and boxers.  He nips at your ear again, sliding his hand down to your stomach and past, to curl around your erection again. "No, love. This has to be slow..." his voice a soft whisper at your ear. "This has to last..."

Dean groans and closes his eyes. "Gods, how I love you."

He leans over you, kissing you and pumping his hand over you slowly, rummaging thru his robes on the floor while kissing you, finding his wand. "Love you too"

Dean lets his hands travel slowly down your body, coming to rest on the small of your back lightly.

Alex kisses you again, passionately, lifting your legs around his hips and casting a lubricating charm on his fingers, probing at you gently with them. "Tell me what you want, baby. " his voice a hoarse whisper against your lips.

Dean gasps slightly. "Oh, Alex...need you inside me...making love to me."

He slips a finger inside of you, prodding with a second to stretch you, watching your face intently to make sure he doesn't hurt you... doesn't scare you away. As he's moving he leans into your lips. "I love you." He whispers it over and over.

"Mmm...I love you too, angel."  he thrusts his hips down against your fingers slightly.

Alex leans back and mumbles the charm again, dropping his wand onto his robes and gathering you close, positioning himself. "Dean, love, you're sure? I.. I love you.. I can wait..." His hand on your hips, fingers massaging the tops of your thighs.

"I'm positive, hun. I need to feel you inside me." he looks up at you pleadingly ands rests his hand over one of yours.

Alex closes his eyes and leans his forehead against yours, pressing slowly against you, his hands on your hips holding you steady as he stretches you and pushes inside, just the tiniest bit. Drawing air in thru clenched teeth.

Dean closes his eyes and pushes up into you, encouraging you on.

Alex clenches his eyes tight and pushes into you completely, slowly easing in inch by inch. At the end he exhales, shaking with the constraint it took to not push in in one fast stroke.

Dean slowly wraps his legs around your waist and rocks his hips against you.

He inhales and exhales sharply, biting down slightly on your shoulder and easing out of you before sliding back in, just as slow as before. "God... Dean.. Baby

Dean gasps and thrusts against you, basking in the sensation of being filled by the person he loves. "Mmm...Alex..."

Alex moans and moves just the tiniest bit faster, sliding his hand down to your arousal as he does so, stroking in rhythm with his hips.

Groaning loudly, he thrusts against you again. "Please, love...faster."

Alex curls over you to kiss you again, deepening the kiss as he rocks his hips and pumps his hand faster. "Oh love..." a hoarse whisper against your lips.

Smiling up at you with an expression of total bliss, he leans up to kiss you passionately.

Alex closes his eyes and leans his head against yours, rocking and stroking faster, rubbing his thumb over the tip of your cock. "Please?"

Dean groans again, digging his fingers into your arms. "Feels...so good." he whispers, voice quavering.

"Mmm." Alex leans down to bite at your lips again, drawing you into another kiss as he trusts and strokes faster, then leans his head against yours again. "God yeah...love...so good...." feeling the tension building and he's bloody surprised he's lasted this long...

Dean rocks his hips against you, feeling his climax approaching quickly. "Gods...Alex. I love you..."

"Love you too.." mumbled almost incoherently against your lips, kissing you again. Alex focuses what is left of his will power on making the strokes of his hand match the rocking of his hips into you, speeding up as his own climax approaches. "Fuck... baby... you feel so right."

Dean gasps, shuddering as climax overtakes him. He arches against you, spilling over your hand and onto his chest.

Alex smiles and captures your lips again, moaning as he thrusts hard a few more times and loses himself inside of you, His entire body tenses and then shudders as he gasps for breath.

Breathing softly against your mouth, he pulls you down against him, wrapping his arms around you gently. "Love you." he whispers quietly next to your ear.

Alex shudders and lays into you heavily, still breathing heavily and trying to let his heart stop pounding. "Love you." mumbed against your ear as he wraps his arms around you as much as he can. "thank you."

Dean smiles against your cheek and snuggles against you. "I'm...so happy."

Alex snuggles into you as close as he can "God...Dean.. that was..." smiling a silly grin and laughing softly against your shoulder.

"That was...what? I want to know." he teases, tickling your side lightly.

He laughs and hisses "brat" under his breath and then smiles against your neck. "Was perfect."

Dean smiles and pulls you close to him. "I love you so much...I can't believe how close I was to not being able to say it again."

Alex closes his eyes so that you don't see the harder emotion pass thru them, then relaxes into you. "I know." He lays as close as possible against you, snuggling in. "I know exactly. I love you too."

Dean sighs softly, caressing your arms. "Hun...I'm...sticky. We need to...clean up a bit." he grins at you slyly.

Alex giggles and kisses your cheek softly, opening his eyes and smiling wearliy. "Love... I don't think I have the energy to look for my wand." And as if to prove his point the muscles of his upper arms, weak from holding his weight for so long, shiver in exhaustion. 

[fin.]